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January–come and gone.

As January wraps up today, I’ll take some time for reflection.

I began my blogging this year about all that I wanted to accomplish this year. Because resolutions generally fall away by the end of the month, I feel like I should take a look at how I have worked towards some of them.

The major one I believe I have really been working on is Get Creative. I have really worked hard on learning the craft of knitting, and I am absolutely loving it! I can’t wait to try to tackle some patterns, and put to use my Lace Knitting To-Go kit I got for Christmas. I also (sigh, finally) completed my shoulder bag that I gave a sneak peek of earlier:

Granted that I have done some sewing in my life, I have never created anything from a pattern. I have only done quilting and things of that nature. So this was definitely a challenge for me! I finally wrapped it up about 2:30 a.m. on Saturday night, after a sewing machine clog/malfunction that dislodged the needle threader. Man was that upsetting. Thank goodness that my hubby is mechanically inclined! Otherwise I probably would have given up.

The bag has some flaws, but I still love it! I made it from scratch and that is an accomplishment to be proud of. (To me anyways).

The resolution I’m probably slacking the most on is Get Healthy. That may come to no surprise as that is the most common resolution that is most commonly given up on. But I refuse to give up completely. I’m still going to work on this.

In other news, it’s snowing and beautiful out!

See you in February!


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New Year – New…(fill in the blank)

Here I am, 12:03, January 1st, 2011.

Home. In the PJs, bumming around.

Not the expected situation for most, but here I find myself, almost completely content.

After coming in hot off the holidays and a two and a half week working binge, I find myself just needing a moment. And as timing would have it, New Year’s presents herself to force me to reflect and plan for the future. So as 2010 wrapped up, now six minutes ago, I find that I have accomplished really, what I had set out to do: school, and work. Really, when looked at now, is only two things. Not much to jump for joy over, but what else can I do?

Right now, I feel like school isn’t really doing much for me. I even would go so far as to say it is holding me back. I’m an English major, and don’t get me wrong, I love it, and couldn’t even dream about studying anything else, but at this point in my life, I feel like once I’ve got the diploma (aka a piece of paper) that will be all I have–an 8 1/2 x 11 sheet of paper. I won’t have that secret power of job getting skills that they whisper to you as you graduate, and I most likely won’t just fall into some incredible position as an editor of a popular literary journal. I don’t see myself being a teacher, for now at least, and I don’t see the market of creative writers opening up soon. But I guess I can just rack it up to experience. I think school has taught me just enough to know that I know nothing. Awe, shucks.

As for work–well, it’s work. I love everyone I work with, and it really is a fairly good gig.

But here I am again, in a sort of slump, feeling uncreative and unproductive. Frustrated. So I am planning on 2011 bringing a solution to that.

I have found something that always lightens my spirits is 1) English Breakfast hot black tea with honey. It warms the soul. And 2) a good book. Right now, I’m reading This is Not Chick Lit, a collection of short fiction stories. I picked it up, because one of my instructors for a course is published in there, and so far every story I have read is amazing, and really inspiring!

I love the idea of the new year. It brings so much opportunity for progress and accomplishments, and I love the way looking forward to things feels. Even with silly things like the mail; usually it’s just bills, but I love the idea that someone sent a letter, especially for me, days before, and it has finally reached me and I get to see what it is. Silly!

So here’s to keeping those New Year’s Resolutions!

Cheers (if you’re out there).


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Zippers are to me as Kryptonite is to Superman. So far.

Well, for me, it was a rather difficult and disappointing Thanksgiving break in regards to my advancement for Lilly Ella Collections.

After sorting out a few kinks in my process, I’m back at pushing towards my new deadline I’ve set for myself. By December 25th, I plan on having items listed in my shop– lillyellacollections.etsy.com — and I’m about a third of the way there.

I’ve decided that frustration will not overtake me. Some things I have struggled with are pretty major in regards to the whole outlook for the shop.

First and foremost, the Pfaff and I were instant enemies. Right from the beginning, it was a rough start. I did a few practice stitches after setting up the machine, and everything seemed to be fine–on the surface. I felt comfortable enough to begin sewing on my beautiful fabric I raved about in the previous post, but no sooner than I went about an inch, it began tearing through it faster than I could even realize it was swallowing it down by the bobbin! After fumbling with the bobbin, the needle, the settings, and pretty much everything else I could think of, I was near meltdown mode. I enlisted the help of my sweetheart husband, even though he has no experience with sewing machines, and we tried for about two hours with no avail. Penelope knows exactly how to express how I felt: Eventually I decided that my grandmother (who owns the Pfaff) would know better how to fix it or what was wrong. I returned it. So, I was sewing machine-less again. But only for a day.

My sister-in-law kindly lent me her Brother CS-6000i, which was still in the box brand new. I got the honor of opening it up and making the first stitch. And it works great! I love it so much I’ve added one of my own to my Christmas list, which is very long, by the way, ever since I discovered Etsy.

The beauty herself (and you can pretty much see my entire “studio” aka the kitchen table)! So, to continue on with my sob story of frustration. I’ll make it quick and painless for you, don’t worry. I wouldn’t want to put anyone through the simply infuriating sensation that the next topic has brought upon me. Zippers. Simply said, I pretty much suck at them. In all the sewing lessons of the past, they have never been included. And they should have been. I have really tried, grumbled, ripped seams, tried, grumbled, ripped seams, and tried again. The end product is merely acceptable at this point, and until I can get some more practice, they won’t be included in my designs.

But on the upside, I really did learn at lot in the past week. And I have become reacquainted with the sewing machine, and I have developed a solid design for a 16 X 16 pillow. Now that mostly everything has worked itself out, I feel like I may be pretty much unstoppable.

Look out world.

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